number four

i don't want to talk about You like you're not in the room,
wanna look right at You, wanna sing right to You.

to know You for who You are.

it can't even last a toilet session..

that you delight in me. and sing over me.

is it possible to be perfectly balanced? where your strengths fill another's lacks, and vice versa?

if not, would u rather be not good enough, always striving to be better for the other person

or be 'more than i could ever ask for in a partner', which translates into you're too good for me and will always be waiting for me to keep up.

?

tomorrow the sun will rise and with it a renewed spirit. new mercies. and i am not alone.

where u just sit and wonder what just happened?

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yup. just keep bringing on the bad news. i know i should stop blaming everything on this abstract thing called 'life'. but it's the only thing i know that falls short of blaming God.

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wasted another night and morning sleeping. photo assgnmt due at 130pm. need to go ask ppl to pose as my 'meaningful person'. another assgnmt due tmr 130pm. sposed to have done it last night so can email for feedback. sigh. cbees.