number three

.. because i live next to sikh ppl.

got attacked by the flu bug. or cold. i dont know. never could tell the diff.
i know my body aches, my nose leaks, and my head feels like a 10pound bowling ball.

luckily (or unluckily?) i'm having a week off for raya.

while booking #4's flight back to melb (because airasiax is finally flying there)

#3: you want malaysian or international food?
#4: har? just now i put malaysian because i thought i malaysian so i have to choose malaysian.

#3: 'my (as in mummy), what's my blood type?
mother: you girls all are A ..
#3: but i thought #4's AB?
mother: oh yeah.

(mother goes on abt A, B, AB )

mother: the two boys are AB.
#3: haha, i tell #4 you call her boy.

(via msn)

#4: print this for me
#3: come my room n plug the cable for me

(#4 being the silly girl actually comes into the room to plug it in)

#3: how come it's not printing? go check the cable at the back of the printer.
(#4 checks, it's plugged in properly .. then follows the cable ..)
#4: oh, that's the mouse cable ..
#3: ...

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possible spoiler of one tree hill if you haven't watch s3 or s4

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"there wasn't really a point you know. because i get it. he's starting his first real job. i mean, he needs time, to adjust and focus and learn the lay of the land. i mean, it's good that he's trying to be a grown up, you know, i mean, so now i'm trying to be a grown up. so why am i going to get all pouty because i don't get to do it."
- Rory, Gilmore Girls S07EP02

22. i'm turning 22.
at times i think my mind stopped developing after spm. maybe a bit during college. but it went downhill from there.

so, i've been trying to be grown up. trying to not make a fuss when things don't go my way, trying to do the things that needs to be done even when i don't like doing them, trying to take charge of things, trying to make the best of things that aren't too great. just doing grown up stuff, y'know?

lorelai: well that sounds like a real grown up talking.
rory: thank you.
lorelai: you know the one thing that grown ups don't call themselves?
rory: what?
lorelai: grown ups. huh. they say adults. and they pronounce it ah-dolts.

sigh.

"i felt alone. forgotten. like nobody there cared about me."
- Mr Ames, ER S13EP05

i get it now.
the reason i fear being forgotten is because i equate being forgotten with not being loved. that when my parents forgot me, i felt that they loved the other 3 more and didn't care about me.

i was young, and it seemed like they never forgot the other 3.
and i guess, in a way, i resented it.

and instead of doing something about it whenever i get forgotten, i just dwelled in self pity.

time to snap out of it.
grow up, marianne.