number four

if anything, waves of unrest cause the need to check on the state of our anchors.

it's always about the foundations. the soil. the roots.

and it's always these very essentials that get forgotten. superceded by careful craftings to the superficial.

but like how u can't disguise a bad concept with however polished an execution - 'a polished turd is still a turd', u can't disguise the fruit borne. the soil you are rooted in determines the fruit you bear. haha not very scientific. good idea, bad execution right there.

sometimes it feels like im forever laying the foundations. and then getting distracted and having to start over. or not building them strong enough and having to start over. and i just want to skip over to the crafting bits cuz that's when the fun starts. when u have something to show for the work u've done.

but clearly idle drifting isn't product of a solid rooting. so back to laying those first brick(by boring brick)s again. with close attention to the manual this time.