are you setupiak?

glad that the partaaayy went alright. not enough food, because 30 became 40. and we didn't have enough faith to make food multiply. but sister went to bed with her smile as wide as the joker's. so it's all good.

glad that the father's back.

but tired.

faced a ghost of the past on sat morning. when i saw the number plate, my face grew pale.

stupid BEP 725 is still alive.

spent some time with the sister plotting on how we should take revenge, but we came up with nothing. because we're nice people who don't go chasing other cars.

it's been, 7 years? but the letters and digits remain fresh. just like TT 487.

stupid satrias.

are you listening???

why is your timing so slow??

it's getting tiring clinging on to your promises.

... when you become a nomad the weeks before folio submission. which i totally did not make.

these days (weeks.. or almost months actually) i'd very much just prefer to stay home. other than family and the johns, i don't think i've been out with anyone else.

i'm just tired.

tired of being disappointed.
tired of mindless conversations.
tired of caring.
tired of replying for the sake of replying because i'm too afraid of losing friendships.
tired of second guessing if people are genuine or pretenders.
tired of trusting and then left to fend for myself.

enough already.

i won't blame u all if u're not there when i'm ready to come out of my shell, but for now, just let me be please.

Pa: so you coming back what time
#4: morning
Pa: ok, another 15 days only

today i found the source of my fascination with counting down to events.. because my dad was the one who started it!!
now looking back, i remember us counting down the days when he'd be back from indo.

15D5H

are we ever gonna get enough time to get back on our feet again before getting knocked down again?

times like these it's hard to ignore the voice that says 'stop kidding yourself and get a REAL degree so you can get a REAL job to support youself (and your family) in the REAL world'.

i suppose this will be a bad time to say that i accidentally overdrew my account.