are you setupiak?

everyone needs a dose of an absolutely unexpected surprise at least once. =)

barely got over the first commontest and now its commontest2. bio was fine. tmr chem. oh dearie me.

Isaiah 41:10
Don't panic. I'm with you.
There's no need to fear for I'm your God.
I'll give you strength. I'll help you.
I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.

an excuse to procrastinate some more?

tell me if im wrong. im not putting much effort into building lasting friendships with new classmates.. cuz.. im not gonna know them long. its already half the year. almost. and i dont think we click anyways. or maybe its cuz i dont care.

am i wrong? to want to cling on to familiarity which is fading bit by bit.

read the great gatsby. so easy to be disillusioned by memory and dreams.

the only beauty i find in dreams is when they get a turn in reality.

played 'i never' tonight. nick, ho, smel, alvin, kh, tyson, shit, ajay, imran, me. it was much more successful than the first time we tried playing durin school lunch break last yr. either everyone's more honest, or have just experienced more, but everyone drank considerably more. haha. wat was my/her/his/your secret is now our secret. but not yours. haha. was a whole load of fun and unimaginable surprise and laughter.

another 2 ppl leaving. yes i think it's possible to get immune to it.

times like these you live and breathe again.

i never... flicked a dog's balls before.

(Peyton's dad talking to Peyton)
Larry: Just promise me one thing. Promise me when you pick the boy you're really gonna be with, that he'll be someone who respects you and treats you well. And it's someone who makes your heart race, and that he's someone who you love because of what he is, not what he does. Because that's how i felt about your mother, and that's how i want you to feel one day. Use your head, and follow your heart.

off to camp.

#4, don't break the blog.

back on monday.

2300 - 0600 --> 7 hrs
1100 - 1300 --> 2 hrs
1400 - 1500 --> 1 hr
total = 10 hrs

ideally, i have 10 hrs to start and finish my 1500 word chem report on ozone depletion. that's without skipping class. and that's my aim!!

cmon cmon.. if procrastinators are to survive they need to acquire certain skill in producing satisfactory work in min. amount of time. sometimes good work. i choose to believe it's an innate skill of mine.

thank you God.
all things are possible.

did u know that the practice of crossing fingers was believed to ward off eveil spirits and misfortune, resulting from the formation of the 'cross' symbol by crossing the middle finger over the index. heh.

after class today, i found myself walking with my shoulders back, chin forward with a grin on my face, instead of my usual slouch and frown. it's been a while since i last walked confidently voluntarily.

it could have been the relieve from handing up the assignment. (last minute work again, what else is new)

or it could have been the coffee. tall latte with two sugars. (this is new, marianne drinking coffee??)

or it could have been the replacement cd that i got for free, even though it was my fault for losing the cd.

or it could have been the confidence i got from being able to do my lab work, and having fun doing it.

or it could have been all the above, and knowing that there's a God who is awesome.

and to think i only had 5 hours of sleep!

i hope this feeling lasts.

im being punished by my ownself... if i had done my chem assignment earlier, i'd be having a holiday tmr... but noo.... must leave til last minute as usual... even now... i still dont feel like doing..
stupid moods and feelings.